It's been a long while since I've written anything for fun. I mean, the last thing that I actually have up here on this journal are two entires that I haven't even really shown to the public yet because I'm still trying to compile them together. And those were back during summer when I went on my vacation to Florida! 

Geez, and it's already November! The least I can say is that I haven't had any time to write freely anymore. Or write in general. Let's just say that the most time I've had lately was a few hours (and I mean like one or two) every night to play video games. I don't even have time right now to post an adequate entry. Because, really I should be working on my Modern Graphic Design project. And a number of things. I'm just doing it because it needs to be done (or doesn't. My mind right now has been so fixated on getting the important stuff down right now, this little time I'm allowing myself to do something not work or class related is making me feel uneasy. DX)

Anyway, let's see if I can do a quick recount of what I have done. Classes are crazy busy. I regret taking Modern Graphic Design. There's a final in Greek Art that's cumulative (*shrieks*). All three of our game ideas (Jammin' Jasper, Monster's Turn, and Four Heroes) coincidentially got voted into the final game project for our gaming class. We're actually making video games guys!! :D Me and Tiffany have our own Game project going on. Two game projects=epic work frenzy. I got hired for work at Owens, Tiffany at West End. Work kinda sucks for me, but it's money and it's alright in one perspective. Our apartment is nice, by the way. Aside from the broken down fridge at the beginning of the year.

I have multiple projects going on at once: Modern Graphic Design project (2-5 art pieces emulating an artist), Psych paper (What Dreams May Come movie character study), Greek Paper ( I dont' even know what I'm doing with that right now), Game modeling and texturing (freaking out freaking out freaking out), Goldsworthy project to make, massive plaster cast statue to put together (I kid, it's not really massive, but it's big), etc. etc. etc.

By the way, we have a PS3 here. It's freaking awesome.

Also, there is Metal Gear Solid 4: Guns of the Patriots.

And I beat it yesterday. Let me tell you the awesomeness that is MGS4. XD

First of all, it's a sneaking game (as the Tactical Espionage Action subtitle hints towards) which was what first drew me to play the game. Sure it's got a fair number of guns (to many... I don't even know where to begin buying and selecting guns...) and plenty of instances where you gotta shoot people in order to go anywhere (by the way, I suck at those parts), but the sneaking parts, getting by without being caught it's probably the best thing about the game.

And Snake? He's freaking hardcore man!! Of course, when I play as him, I hardly do him justice. If it were real Snake, he wouldn't be caught or shoot frantically around his opponents nearly as much as I did. But there really is nothing like the suspense of hiding in a cardboard box (LAWL btw) and seeing a solider suddenly stop by you and looking at the box and saying, "Huh? A box...? Where did that come from?" Normally, in those situations, I just have Snake pull up his gun just as the PMC (what the bad guys are called in the game, for whatever reason, I can't tell you because I've only played MSG4, not any of the previous ones) and I catch them by surprise.  But when there's an entire team of elite soldiers who have their guns out standing barely two feet away from you (looking for you, might I add) as the PMC reaches down to lift the box, you really have to just pause the game for the sheer "WHAT THE HELL SHOULD I DOOO?!?!?" because that's just a freaking Oh s*** situation there.

I restarted the game there. I kid you not. I was supposed to go to bed anyway. XD I'm such a cheater. Yeah, but most of the game, I couldn't figure out what was going on because it's supposed to be a giant story that tied up all the loose ends of the previous games and explains everything. So if I ever do get the chance to go back and play the previous games (I don't know if that's going to happen) I'll know what's going on :D. But man... the ending!

Skip this part if you don't want spoilers, because I must tell you how awesome the ending was.

( Do you Dare?! )

Good job Hideo Kojima! I didn't know what awesome games you made in the MSG series until now. It tempts me to play the previous ones! Seriously! Add those games to my long list of games that I still need. @___@

Anyway, I've spent an hour and a half writing this thing up while I should've been working on designing posters. I'm probably going to spend the next few minutes re-reading what I just wrote just because of how awesome this game was.

If you haven't played it yet, DO IT!

XD

Oh look! I'm posting. The concept!

*epic lawls*

Anyway, just felt like yesterday was a significant enough day for me to record in my journal of not so significant days. Yesterday was actually supposed to be really really busy. We had planned to go to a job interview, then visit my grandma's house to get my necklace fixed and for my mom to dye her hair and get a trim, then go out to shopping.

But, around 2 hours before the actual interview, we got a call saying that something happened and they had to reschedule our interview. So that basically tore down most of our afternoon right there. Instead we scheduled it for the following Wednesday at 1:00, but after scheduling, we realized that our mom would most likely not even get off by then. So then our mom came back around 2:00 and we went to out to eat lunch, then went to our grandma's place.

We were at our grandma's place until 6:00 PM (WHAAAAT?! was my reaction when I found out the time) and we didn't get anything done there. My mom went out with my jade to get it fixed, but the person who was supposed to fix it apparently wasn't there, so she had to leave it there and then pick it up next Wednesday. So then when she came back to my grandma's place, she got distracted by our lil baby cousin and didn't get her hair cut or dyed. We found out that we forgot to bring our Wii bag to bring home our Wii. In the meantime, we had brought over Rock Band and were setting it up, only to realize that we had forgotten to bring our drumsticks. So instead we used these enormous chopsticks that were too long and caught on your leg when you tried to hit other drum pads. And the baby was there so we had to be both extra careful while at the same time trying to keep a hold on our drumsticks because the baby liked to take it away from us.

He's probably not a baby much anymore, more a toddler. But yeah, he kept taking the sticks out of Jon's hand in mid song. We compesated by using a normal chopstick (which doesn't work by the way, it's too short and too light. D:) but he was smacking the drum pads with his chopsticks so we always died really fast. And then when the option to play next song or rety the song popped up, he always hit the retry option. So we ended up playing the same song a half dozen times until we finally went through it only after he was spending most of the time trying to get my cousin off of guitar and take him outside. Which was still really distracting.

So yeah, it was after 6:00 when we left our grandma's place so I wasn't so sure if we could even go out shopping but my mom said that we would go and then get dinner. Except my dad got back from work so he was hungry. So instead we went out to dinner with my dad. We finally went to Target at around 8:30, only to disagree on what gifts to buy for Sputnik. We couldn't find the one that was on the list, and we didn't want to spend that much money on some of the nicer looking gifts. We decided that the prices were cheaper online and that we should go buy it online instead.

I needed some shoes and Target was going to close soon so I went to look for sandals in the shoe aisle, except there weren't any shoes that I wanted, only those really fancy looking ones. I just want simple, practical shoes that don't draw attention to my feet! Why can't people design sandals for girls/women that don't have some sort of pretty flower embroidery or some sparkly jewels in the straps? D: Anyway, my dad said that we should just go to walmart for some sandals and we decided to do it another day when we had more time.

So we went home. It was around 10:00. Pie said, "I guess we're not going to look at books" on the way home.

Oh, and when we came home, we found out that we had left some stuff at my grandma's house too. And we also found a baby mouse that had died in front of our house. (THE BABIE MOUSE!! D: *weeps*)

Also, halfway through the night, we found another lil mouse running around in our basement. My mom told me just now that we had finally caught it. Except she forgot to bring it out and release it. So it had been sitting on our front porch for half a day already. I just now, brought it in.

It died too.

*sobs*

So that was yesterday (and this morning) in a nutshell.

Anyway, we're about to go out for an appointment.

I need to get my mind off of dead cute lil animals. *cries*

It sucks.

Lots of crap that needs to be done lately. >< Isn't it ridiculous? 3 more classes until the end of the semester, 1 more exam left, but still alot of stuf that we need to do. Mainly for the classes where we don't have an exam.

I think there's something nice about exams... you study for them for a night or two, then you take it, then it's all done for you!

But no, we have one story to rewrite, one story to revise (haven't even gotten it back yet, people are reading it right now and considering it topped at some 22 pages, I don't think the reviews are going to be either nice or coherent...) a film reel of renders that needs to be done (and the renders need to be finished first) one landscape painting, one free-form painting that can be whatever I want.

Statues of those things?
10 pages of rewrite=3.5 pages down.
revision=havn't gotten it back yet.
film reel=2 render videos, 1 still needs to start rendering
landscape=underpainting has been started, on other words10% there (maybe)
freeform= halfway-60/70% done.

In other words... I'm no where near done. I have a deadline rapidly approaching on Friday for just the creative writing stuff, but only one more day to finish everything else, meaning I'd better get those paintings underway. D: But there are only so few hours in the day and I can't work when it gets so late.

Maybe we should stop watching Monk before sleeping and just... work.

I honestly don't know how I'm going to get this stuff done.

*hyperventilates*

We went to Big Event

We got a farmer's tan.

I'm currently obsessed with all things Chinese folklore.

I've gotten 9 pages of my short story down after scrapping 10.

Isn't that great.

Oh my gooooooood I need another weekend!

*sobs* why is Monday coming so freaking fast....

Write 2nd Short Story
Go to a Library and look up info on fortune sticks
Study for Art History Exam (this sunday)
Buy groceries
Model and texture a ton of things
Finish 2nd Still-Life
Finish Figure Painting before next Monday
Get an idea for painting to do alongside the Landscape one
Go to the Animal Shelter (next Sat)
Do the Big Event (Sat after that)
Find a summer Job
Get scholarships
Call home
Find an apartment for next year
Make up characters, join an RP
Develop current RPies, post more
Draw Stuff
Write Stuff
Etc.

All my lists always have draw and write stuff. >.>;

Man, I'm not doing too well with updating this consistantly, am I? Ah well, you got time and drive, you do it. Which is both something that I happen to be lacking lately.

Anyway, weather's been pretty awesome lately (天气好极了！）. I've been able to walk outside in sandals and without a sweater now! Granted, it gets a lil chilly in the early and later hours of the day, but it's still nice. Though, my sandals seem to be wanting to give my feet blisters so I'm kinda wary about wearing them too much. D: I hate my sandals（我不喜欢我的sandals), I wish I had more comfortable, non-feet tearing ones to wear.

Though the weather's been nice workloads have been not so nice (天气太好了，可是我有太多功课。）though for Turt it seems to be further along that end, absolutely terrible). It's like CW heard my complaint about having nothing to do in that class, about wanting more writing assignments so it doesn't feel like I write once every blue moon... and then shoved all the writing assignments that I might've had in one entire school year of CW into one semester and handed it to me. "No complaining!" they say, and they're right too. I can't complain. -____- Feels like I've got more work that needs to be done OUTSIDE of class rather than inside, which makes wanting to go to class even less appealing.

I'm proud of myself though--haven't missed a single class yet! :D

But yeah, seems like there are always things that I need to be mindful off when I'm on my free time now: models that need to be made and textured in Short Film, Still Life painting that needs to be finished, Model Study painting that needs to be started, Chinese to study and understand （学还懂中文）, stories to read and workshop, exercises to write and pour over, stories to write, stories to REwrite and revise, apartments to look for, scholarships to waste my time over, courses to request, next year to worry about... etc. That on top of the things that I want to do: maps to make, fanfics to write and develop, Rpies to post in, characters to make and develop, people to talk to（跟别人说话）, things to draw... Man, if employers saw that list, maybe they'd realize how much of a hard worker I am! *makes stupid laugh, then hits herself upside the head* Maybe I should add 'things to fill my resume with' to the list?

Now I learned that we might not be able to finish the film in Short Film? Blasphemy! Even the teacher is worrying about it! I don't want to leave this semester with unfinished work, which is making me worry more and think that we need to spend more time in the DAAS Lab in order to finish the film. But when I think that, I also think that there are a ton of other things that I need to do too（我很忙）, which really make me feel that while I'm spending my free time playing video games I'm wasting time! It's a bad feeling, cuz I know Pie doesn't want to think that way.

Pie, start thinking about it! We got work to do and stuff to hustle along! Maybe I should say these things at the beginning of the day so you can.. iunno, prepare for it. XD

But yeah, I want to finish it. I want to have something to show for it.

Man I need to upload things of what we've done. Today, our Prof told us that another student looking at a test render of the Office space of our film said it looked like a Pixar thing and wanted to take Short Film Animation now. XD I'm flattered, even though we haven't done all that much in it.

I was pretty bummed out this morning. Went to Chinese and experienced an awkward outcast-esque feeling amongst my own classmates. Usually, when I'm with a class, I don't feel like an outcast, I just feel like a stranger amongst strangers. But in that classroom, amongst my group partners, I feel like an outcast. I mean, my partners are cool doods, even if one of them has that same nervous shy aura that it seems most asians like me have, but I guess the fact that they're good buddies makes it harder for me to feel like a part of the group. We were supposed to be working on a script today to present on Friday, and while the rest of the class all around me chatted with each other, my group sat there in awkward silence. The same awkward silence that is created when people sit there and seem like they're thinking of something, but really aren't, they're just acting like they're thinking of something to show that they aren't disturbed by this awkward silence and hoping that someone of that group will speak and break this awkward silence so we can get stuff done! Maybe I need to be this person? But it seems like that when I'm not with someone I know, my mind just wants to hole itself up into a shell and perform only the minimal responses in order to show that I'm not just some antisocial person who doesn't like people. I talk just enough to elevate me above giving the impression that I don't like people enough to talk to them. Just enough. It bothered me enough so that I was consciously thinking about it while sitting there, staring uneasily at the clock, hoping that the numbers would tick by faster. While listening to my sister, my carbon copy sitting in her group with conversations and thoughts being fired at each other. It's like another form of torture!

Just luck that I'm stuck with a group where 2/3 people are shy and the third is a bit cautious about what he says. And the reason I can't seem to converse with these asians is because of a language barrier, which is the reason that I'm in this class! What a freaking dilemma! What is up with that honestly? It's not like they don't speak english or anything, but that they can speak Chinese well whereas I can't, even though I'm their same age, if not older, and I feel like I'm not even Chinese, that bugs me. What am I taking this class for? Wouldn't this have been easier if I could speak Chinese, if I wasn't a goddamn brat as a kid and stuck to my Chinese studies and learned the language instead of considering it some waste of time?

This stuff was going through my head throughout most of my day, and sometimes I just feel like I'm staring off into space whenever I'm not doing anything and thinking these things and feeling my spirits go down. I was feeling like that during most of my Painting classes too, but that was more from a sense of inadequacy that drove it. Though, lately, I feel more like I'm letting my Painting prof down. C'mon two class periods and I haven't even started on my painting? That's like 4 more class periods left... Everyone's got a composition and color down and I just finished covering my canvas with Gesso? And I'm not even done with my still life! Which ended two class periods ago. An entire week ago! And still so much that needs to be done with the still life. Still so much.

Trying to make up interesing compositions for all of my creative workings lately. Sometimes I feel like I've put my creative juices into overdrive this semester and that's the reason that I can't seem to come up with anything. But then I have to remember that last semester, none of my creative juices were flowing and I STILL felt that way. It took me so much time to find out something fun to do with my Model Study, and even then I had to have the prof give me ideas. Made me sweat during Chinese while trying to crank out something for a script. Made me feel like everything I write in RPies are the stuff of average thoughts.

...

*sighs* What a sad person I must be. Ranting all these things to a journal that people have no reason to care about. Every's got their own crap to worry about.

Anyway, got nothing else to say, so I'm gonna sign off for now. 再见！

我现在会写中文。Isn't that nifteh. XD

*wonders how much of this post she can change into Chinese...?*

*gives up after going through half of her post* Geez, I use so much colloquially speech it makes translating it into Chinese that much harder.

"Based on the information in your letter, I think that the committee is
unlikely to consider releasing you from your housing contract."

Is what they said when I emailed them about breaking my contract.

I'm seriously starting to feel desperate.

Doing this cuz I'm bored. And I like doing music games.

( River )

Somehow, I have managed to make this longer than it needed to be... as usual.

Watch this! It's a guitar rendition of a Mozart piece, but if you're not interested in the music, the composition of this video was actually really good. Watch it for the guy's funny expressions!

"Beware traveling in dark alleyways alone."

Literally.

I'd really like to see one that says, "You shouldn't have eaten that."

Feeling pretty stupendously stupid right now.

I had 3 hours between my first class and my second one today, so we did laundry and then hung out, waiting for class to come around. Except both me and my sister were completely and totally convinced that class started at 3:20.

Which it doesn't.

When I announced that it was 3:00, Pie almost leapt out of her chair and cried, "3?!"

Almost made me doubt myself. Well, it did. I said, "It's starts at 3:20, doesn't it? You'd better check."

And it we did.

And it started at 2:00.

*dies inside* FREAKING HELL!! How could we be so stupid in forgetting that class started at 2, not 3? Class had practically ended by the time we realized that we missed it. So we decided to go anyway, if only to hand in our assignments and to find out what we missed.

I was afraid that Vollmer would've been angry at us, but lucky for us, he was a pretty paid back dood. I couldn't help but feel like he WAS a bit peeved, but was hiding it. ><

Well, I do feel a bit better knowing that we at least came up to the teacher and apologized for missing his class (his class is one of the classes that I DON'T want to miss! And to think, in response to his syllabus, I wrote: "We twins will attend class even if we're sick!" I should've also added, "When we remember to!! *insert crazed giggle*) and got handouts and handed in our assignments and whatnot, instead of staying in the room and settling with an email.

He doesn't like email. I want to email him as little as possible.

;___;

I'm going to go off and try to ignore my self-loathing now.
 

So.

I did it.

I beat Infinite Undiscovery.

I already wrote a somewhat lengthy bit of it there a few posts back, but heck why not?

( Spoilers ahead )

So... the question is what to play now? XD

;___; I need to get stuff done, but can't seem to pry myself away from video games.

Geez. I don't think I wanted to go back home for the holidays this badly last year. And the funny thing is, I don't even feel that excited about going. I mean, I have this gut feeling, this yearning to go home, to just lounge around and relax, but at the same time, I also know I'm going to be quite bored. I wouldn't be doing anything.

Ah, but that's a minor feeling compared to how BADLY I want to go home.

Wanting something that'll come to you just makes time crawl ever so slowly by.

So yeah, me and Pie cleaned up our room today. We vacumned and mopped and the only thing we didnt do was dust.

Which, considering the state of above our fridge and around our TV, is a big problem that we should've dealt with.

Wanted to have dinner with Sputnik and Turtle, but they didn't answer their phones. ;___; We just went out and grabbed some Micky D's since I didn't want anything on campus.

And then studied for Chinese Exam. I just want it to be over with.

;___;

If teleportation were possible, I'd use it everyday.

*sighs*

I should be getting back into the groove of writing RP posts, of writing creatively, but I really don't feel like it. So here I am, doing another one of these movies. Just cuz I like to listen to my music and see what they say about my life, time and time again. XD

I don't think there's that much new music this time, but oh well. I'll go and use my entire playlist for the soundtracks.

Here we go! Read at your own discretion.



Time for Dinner!

* Grab the book closest to you. Now.
* Go to page 56.
* Find the 5th sentence.
* Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.

"Then as now, the theatre was an extremely risky enterprise--most of those who wrote plays and preformed in them made pathetically little money--but Shakespeare was a notable exception."
~The Norton Shakespeare, 2nd edition

>.>;;

Hm... I was hoping to get a random sentence in on of his plays, but the 'go to page 56' kinda destroyed it.

There's no meaning in me wanting to write a line from Shakespeare or anything like that.

I just got Shakespeare on the brain is all. Having written a 15 page paper on him and Richard II.

Why did I pick a history play of all things? I mean, they're really dull. Well, I suppose I at least picked one of the more interesting plays.

...Sorta.

D: I'm such a freaking dork.

And yesterday was Thanksgiving. And while I would really really like to sit down and write an entry on what I'm thankful for, I have a bloody Shakespeare paper to write.

;____;

I feel good about myself that I've started early, but that feeling was far removed after writing for 3 hours straight and getting so little down! I'm not woried about the page limit, I've got enough material methinks, but I feel like I'm just rambling on and on... and on...

Ugh.

And I also spent so much of my time doing research to verify the research I was doing, looking for lil points that I wanted to make sure I got right before writing them down only to almost forget what the point was. I reread so many articles, or rather read one 'article' which was more like a book preview which was some 200 pages long that omitted ALL the necessary parts that I was looking for (something I couldn't tell until I've read some 100 pages collectively). And then worrying about citation.

Such a bother, citation is. I know it's to prevent plagarism and uphold the validity of sources, but GOD how annoying it is. Honestly, the parenthesis breaking up flow of the writing, and then tryiing NOT to paraphrase text. SO FREAKING HARD!!

Now, I'm going to go off and shoot baddies to alleviate my stress.

Video Games are the solution to stress. ... Yes